It's day 2 of my "Best of Summer '16" series. Yesterday I spoke with you dolls about my fashion moments but in the intro I told you that this has been one of the best and worst summers of all times. I've had so many life lessons in such a short amount of time. I'm doing my best to take them as they come, learn from them and enjoy and make more good memories.
If I'm being transparent then I will tell you that during the course of this summer, I believe I was well on my way to a nervous break down. You would never know from my blog post and Instagram pictures but life had given me a beating and I at one point thought I wouldn't recover from it. If you've been following me for a while, then you're aware that my dad was murdered almost 2 years ago. It was the hardest thing I've ever had to go through. Well, this month the trial started for the killers, I was in a car accident, lost 2 aunts, had a few health issues just to name a few of my struggles. I was overwhelmed and under prepared for all that was to come but I fought through. I went to therapy and I have a great support system. I learned to take a break from life when I needed to. That is what saved me, that and my faith. The funny thing is I hadn't been to church since loosing my dad. He was my pastor and truthfully loosing him made my faith waiver. 2 months before my world came crashing down, I started back attending church and paying my tithes. It was his grace that kept me from going under. It was my attendance in church that gave me hope that I would make it through to the next week. It was God. I am coming out of the funk I was in and I'm more motivated than ever to be the best me that I can be. I will... there is no other option.
I know some of you are like... "chile where is the good part" LOL There were so many good moments as well. I fell in love with me all over again. I learned some things about myself and I LOVE the woman I am becoming. I have a core group of girlfriends that are loving and supportive and a male best friends that you should all be jealous of. LOL We workout and travel and enjoy each other immensely. I grew a stronger bond with my mother which I'm grateful for. I reconnected with one of my friends who I missed dearly but was too prideful to reach out to. I enjoyed life on my terms. I let go of some of the restrictions I had placed on myself and just lived. It was such a freeing experience. I dyed my hair grey and wore booty shorts. (literally my ass was hanging out of one pair) Typically I would shy away from this "butt" I didn't. LOL
For the first time I lived a large portion of my life on my terms. I can't and won't go back.